teary Christmas.

These last few weeks have been very crazy leading up to christmas.
I've been so homesick!
I've tryed to keep myself busy but it doesn't always work out that way.
A couple days ago there was another cockroach this time in my room.. I was traped on my bed throwing shoes at it and screaming until my mom can and saved the day! It was funny.

Yesterday was the 24th and that's when most brazilans celebrate christmas. It was a really great day until they started opening presents and being like a big family.. It remined me so much of home. and made me miss it so much. I was crying like a baby and wanted more than anything to be alone and invisible. I did how ever get a brazilian BIKINI! :D i love it. But later that night before bed i was alone and had to much time to think and ended up crying myself to sleep.

Today (the 25th of december) my amazing canadian family woke up at 6 so they could skype with me and open presents. I was because i didn't get the presents they sent me in the mail yet. Who knows if i'll ever even get them, But it was nice to see and pertend i was apart of my old family again. I really miss them and My sister is countting the days until my return. 193 more days.
After this i gave some presents to my host family and started crying more because i missed my real family. The rest of the day was like this crying on and off. Any little thing that reminded me of home would set me off on another tearfull rage.

anyways Christmas this year was good. But one of the hardest days of my life. To me christmas is a time to eat lots and spend with your family. I was with a new family and it was very different than what i was used too, but all in all i'm glad i made it threw. I made it past this i can make it past anything. It only goes up from here.

Merry christmas
Feliz natal ♥

MEU DEUS!

Oh my goodness!
That thing was huge and sooooo very scary..
I went in to the bathroom to brushmy teeth before bed. Well there was this HUGE bug im so scared. i ran and got my shoes then i went back and it was gone so i brushed my teeth then i looked down and almost peed my pants! there that stupid thing was almost on my foot. I was so scared i almost screamed but remebered it's 1 in the morning and everyone is sleeping but still i had a mini heart attack, then i tryed to step on it but it was fast and i was too scared to hear it crunch. So i ran away to my room and shut the doors hopeing it wont come under the doors. I was so scared i ran on too my bed and havent left since.. I want to wake up my dad so he will kill it. I need to pee but i'm too scared to go back to the bathroom.. It's a really scary thing IT WAS HUGE!

This sounds so dumb a cockroach is controling my life! like seriously.. what am i going to do about this! ahhh.... help me.
I want to be in the cold where there is no such thing as a cockroach..
also check out my exchange video on youtube,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IeG_3VVcgbM

tenho seldades!

well so much has happened.
I went surfing in the big waves! It was so amazing! i was so scared. but i ended up catching a couple good waves.
I went to a very cute french cafe. It was so much fun because i went there with French exchange students.

I had to change family. This was very hard for me because i love my first family. It was an emotional day for me. I was nervous to meet my new family. I was scared, I was extremly sad. Now 2 weeks later i look back at that and I laugh at how scared i was of my new family. I love them they are great. But i miss my first family dearly so i like to visit with them. Also i miss very much my canadian family.

I have had the worst day of my exchange so far and it wasn't good. I was so homesick and i wanted more than anything to have my mom to hug. I miss that. I miss fighting with my sister and brother. I miss getting yelled at. Isn't that weird how could i miss this?

I have had some of the best moments these past weeks..

I have had a crash course in portuguese. It was like i hit a brick wall. but now i can understand so much but speaking is still a problem.

I've had so many ups and downs and things seem to be getter harder because it is getting closer to christmas. But it doesn't feel like christmas time. Not only because it's cold but also because i'm not with my canadian family.

Sorry my english is so horible now not to mention my spelling is terrible!