Monday, June 6, 2011

day by day

Everything happens for a reason. That is what i seem to believe in. and in the end my journey has always seemed to work out and if not it made me stronger. I've had many roll-a-coasters this year, and i would love to thank everyone who was strapped in with me. I came in to this thinking very little about what would happen this year. Never did i think that i would get the chance to meet the people i have. Never would you think i would become a girly girl and care about my style of clothes.
It's never as bad as you think it is. Although this isn't always true its almost always it. around 95% of the time it's true. I've learned this many times. Just live life as you want and remember live in the moment! that is the way to live!
don't let the past ruin your present. the future is unknown but what comes your way you can handle it one day at a time.
I'm extremely deep now a days have you noticed?

I want to tell you a little more about my life its really crazy these days. I have such little time left and so much to do,
I can't wait to get home and eat ketchup chips. boy do i miss them! i also miss poutine. and a good old bbq with hot dogs and hamburgers!
But i know here i will miss the easiness of catching a bus anywhere i want to go, i'll miss the people and the culture here. i'm going to miss acai! it's the best. ill miss the beach and the stores and the wild dogs. and everything.
it will be so hard leaving!

way over due

sorry i havent wrote in months. i know this was supposed to be a weekly thing, but things changed and i was busy then i would always put it off untill tomorrow. So today i will write a post about my life now :)
since the last time i posted a lot has changed.
I've traveled around brazil
*Natal (north east)
*Uruguay
*Argentina
*Foz de Iguassu
*Amazon!!!!
i would say the coolest place i have been to in Brazil is the amazon because of the nature there and all the things there are so different and dream like. I loved it so much there. My goal is to someday return there.
I changed families again and now i returned to my first family so it's quite good. I love it here. the other day i was talking with my host mom about when i leave and we both were almost in tears. She is such an amazing person my 2nd mom for sure!
My best friend in the whole world (Iliana from Mexico) just left. we used to do everything together. We seen each other almost everyday and now she isn't here and i sometimes feel lost without her. but i guess it's one of the lessons you learn on exchange.
It's nearing the end of my exchange and just before i came here i remember being asked to say what i feel when im going home. Too me it's the weirdest feeling. First i was excited to finally get to see my family again after so long! but now that i think about it and when people ask if i want to leave i say no. I don't deep down i love this place and will miss it so much. I love the life style here, i love the beautiful (sometimes funny) language and accent of Portuguese i love being able to get around town without help anymore. I love it here. and when i leave i will miss it so much. It will be the hardest thing I've ever done. It all still feels like a dream.
My life back in Canada feels like a dream to me now. and so much has changed there and i have changed and grown as a person I'm feeling scared to go home and face reality. I don't want to. When i get home i will have to go to school and do the work, I will have to think about what happens next in my life; but here in Brazil all i think about is what will i do that afternoon or what parties are there to go to on the weekend. My like here is simple,
Okay so it's not always so simple. at times it can be harder than anything you've ever dealt with in your life. Being an exchange student means your emotions are amplified by 10. You get so angry over the stupidest thing. You can go from a high to a low in the matter seconds. It's a crazy life but we make it work.
Saying goodbye is the hardest thing you will ever do.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

I just got back from a trip to the northeast of brasil Natal to be more exact.
I loved it there! it was so hot all the time the sun was out most of the time and it was alomost like a whole new country. The food was different (still good though) and the culture was different too. I got to experiance so many neat things.
I got to pet a shark i got to eat tipical northeast food, i got to see the buggest caju tree in the world (HUGE) i found beans that i like. I even got to work on my tan :D
i loved it there and was sad to leave. but when i got home things turned into a normal ruitine again. I'm back to hanging out with my best friend and it's great. Iliana and i do everything together.
I skyped with my mom and it was good. I love her and miss her so much but i know i can make it threw this year. I want to make it tothe end of my exchange.
I think i will be going home in june now because all the other exchange students are too.
I'm really excited to see everyone back home. and to share my time here with them.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Brazil rules.

so it's been a lone time since i've posted.
After christmas was finally over i got ove the hole missing my family thing. I'll be here one year. (now i think around 9 months) and I only have one change to make a differce here. Well not really but that's what it feels like. And it kind of hit me. I swear everything justs jits me all the time. Anyways back to the ponit. I deside i could sit around and miss my family the whole 6/5 months i have left here of i could get up and go do things.
on new years i go tto go out with my Friends and celebrate with them which was a nice, and such an amzing night. Best new years yet!


After new years i looked in my journal that i keep and write everyday. I haven't missed a day for a whole 10 months. PARBENS pra eu. :)
i read back somethings that i wrote and it made me laugh at the person i was. Now i'm so much more layed back. not as on time as i used to be.... And not so up tight.
I also read some letters i've recived of taken with me and they made me cry. they were funny, but remember the times i had in canada was a sad feeling.

Brasil is such a hot place i learned very fast after i got my huge sunburn. My goodness., That burn hurt so bad. I had o a brazilian bikini (very tiny) and no sunscreen in mid day. let's just say everywheere was red and i couldn't sleep for days after. not to mention i have to deal with the grose skin pealing. I learned my lesson pretty fast. at least that day was fun i got to visit a bar that you can write something down and then you can stick it on the wall :) So i did it.